So in the beginning of 2014 I was convinced it was going to be the worst year ever and nothing could change that and I absolutely hated you but now thinking about it, I don’t. Because fact is if it weren’t for you two years ago I wouldn’t be alive rn and wouldn’t have the happiness I do. So thanks I guess? Because now I’m happier than I ever have been and fall asleep every night smiling and it’s only march. I can’t wait to see how this year ends. I’m excited for my future for the first time in my life and holy shit it’s a good fucking feeling.
I know that moving on is probably what’s best for both of us and things will be better this way but god I just really don’t want to. I’m so comfortable with you and everything’s so easy and I’m so happy. I know I’ll be better this way and happy on my own which I need to learn how to be but I just really miss you. And it’s really kinda dumb of me because before I could never picture myself doing anything with out you and it’s still kinda that way and it’s just weird knowing I don’t have you and probably never again will. Still was the best two years I’ve ever invested into one person and I’ll never regret it. I just don’t want to let go..
Surprisingly through this hell of a day I’m still smiling and only cried three times.